Reflection of Weekly Goals #1

At the start of the week, I set three goals I would like to accomplish by the end of this week. This article will keep me accountable and note my progress so far.

One of my goals this week was to apply for a great amount of internships. At this moment it seems like a great amount of internship opportunities have passed. From what I've been told, the big companies usually hire late in the Fall semester. A lot of us felt that there did not seem to be an urgency for us interaction design students to apply for internships back then so at the moment we're applying to these internships like crazy.

For this reason, my first goal this week was to apply to as many internships as I could this week—at least ten. To keep on track and record this progress, I have created a little Google Spreadsheet of all the internships I have applied to. So far I have applied to eight; still have at least two to go by the end of this week.

I definitely want to apply for more. What makes it even more exciting is that I have already gotten two emails back of hiring managers for these companies wanting to interview me, which is amazing! So, that is definitely motivating me and the urgency to scalp any internships left; especially for these companies that excite me.

The next goal of mine was to secure an internship. At this moment in time, it is still pretty early since the interview appointments that I have are in the middle of this month. Though, that is still good progress. One of the ways I thought I could achieve this was by modifying each resume and cover letter that I send it to its specific requirements, which I have been doing; at least to the ones that it seems necessary. I received this tip from a Microsoft professional that I talked to, this Winter Break.

What I can do to prepare for these internship interviews is to make an appointment at CCA's Career Development Center for them to help me practice for interviews. I will do that tonight or tomorrow—for next week. I will ask them for ways I could answer these questions, type them down, and practice answering them whenever I have time.

My last goal was to get good grades for this class. I have to be honest. One of the ways I thought of fortifying this goal was to turn in homework a day before the deadline but my depression gets in the way. It is so frustrating. At times, I just want to leave certain situations; just avoid any worries in my life and go into a cocoon and have them all resolve themselves. I know this will never happen and there is so many expectations wanted of me. Though, I have turned in all my homework on time this week; even if it's the same day.

I have been making other efforts such as taking good notes during class and asking my classmates questions when I am confused.

[At this very moment, I overheard a therapy patient talk about my very problem. Of just wanting to go into this small and confined space and just avoid life. People may ignorantly judge you based on the outer perspective they have of someone with severe depression. They may believe that they are lazy, that they are awkward, and so on. I just wish they could step into my shoes and be empathetic. Even if they do not understand what I am going through.]